Back to reality, and the same old mistakes

I'll cut it short today:

Tipster:	P/L Today:	Stakes:	ROI:
4PA	0.00	0.00	N/A
CL	0.00	0.00	N/A
EI	0.00	0.00	N/A
FE	0.00	0.00	N/A
FI	0.00	0.00	N/A
MGB	0.00	0.00	N/A
PB	-1.00	1.00	-100%
SK	0.00	0.00	N/A
CNB	0.00	0.00	N/A
FES	1.10	1.00	110%
EWV	-1.00	1.00	-100%
BLB	0.00	0.00	N/A
TRA	-1.74	1.74	N/A
NMP	-1.00	1.00	-100%
WRT	-0.40	0.40	-100%
AB	0.00	0.00	N/A
MB	0.00	0.00	N/A
SPDT	0.00	0.00	N/A
SKS	0.00	0.00	N/A
SF	0.00	0.00	N/A
LB	0.00	0.00	N/A
HF	0.00	0.00	N/A
GVE	0.00	0.00	N/A
FB	-3.00	3.00	-100%
PCB	0.00	0.00	N/A
Total	-7.04	9.14	-65.00%

Nothing doing for any of the horse racing services, but Football Elite Shortlist came in with a winner on Hercules against Atletico Madrid.

Again I went off the rails with the Trading, not sticking to my staking plan, don't really know why I do it to be honest. So instead of a 0.5 PT loss I got a 1.74 PT loss. Didn't put any thought or intelligence into the trade, just saw it, stuck £50 on it and let it roll... and it rolled off a cliff. And I'd been for another hypnotherapy session today. Maybe it's my culture, maybe it's my character, I think I want good returns without actually putting much effort into it. I have been brainwashed my entire life by my mother stating how I should just relax and take it easy... it's not her fault, she just wants the best for me, but it's meant that I don't put as much effort in as is required. So, do I victimise myself or change? Easier said than done of course, but the latter is what'll get me out of the rat race and to where I want to get... some truths coming out, but I have to be honest with myself, try and discover why the screw gets loose like it does.

Until tomorrow